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Next Week's Mission [Oct. 26th, 2007|10:17 pm]
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I thought about it yesterday, and I have decided to try going back to school. I went today for a little bit (I had an excuse to leave early for a therapist's appointment). It was okay. I think I should try going back the whole week next week, Monday through Friday. It sounds easy, but not for some nervous wreck like me. But hey, if I want to act more like the normal mainstream kids in school, I should at least go to school. And that's what I've decided.
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I know this is my nerdiest post yet, but.......... [Oct. 24th, 2007|12:02 pm]
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[Current Music |Pretty Girls Make Graves - "All Medicated Geniuses"]

I SAW A SHINEY POKEMON! Yes, it's true! I was in shock, even if it was just a stupid Bibarel. So when I tried to catch it, I used the weakest attack I could think of.........and I killed it. Crap.
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What Do You Have To Say? - Fashion: My Style Icons [Oct. 22nd, 2007|02:55 pm]
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Who are your style icons and what do you love about them?

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 Wasn't there already a question like this, only replacing the words "icon" and "celebrity"? If so, I really should not spend so much time online. =P
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Uh-oh, Spaghettios [Oct. 22nd, 2007|02:44 pm]
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Heh. Guess who missed yet another day of school? =)


This isn't good. I now know that I am totally doing this on purpose (well, it was always on purpose) and I need to stop, but I know I won't. Geez, even I'm angry at myself for not going to school! I guess I'm too lazy and apathetic.
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Back to Failure [Oct. 21st, 2007|07:01 pm]
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Oh, God. I am NOT looking forward to tomorrow.

I officialy hate school again, and with a passion. I never actually loved school, but there was a time in my life when I didn't mind being there. (Actually, I did love being in Conestoga Valley High, but I only attended that school for a brief period of time soooooooooooo it doesn't count.) Before then, school sucked. And now, after school was temporarily okay for a little while, school sucks once again......(Did that confuse you? It kind of confused me. Hmm...let's start over.)
Look, I just really hate school. Every morning I wake up, knowing that I'm going to have a horrible day. I get anxious, and a lot of times I refuse to let my body get up and ready for school. Once I miss the bus, I take it a step further and refuse to go to school by hiding out in my bedroom the whole day, just forgetting about it temporarily in my sleep. And because I missed so many days of school, I am totally failing my mainstream classes. (I am an IU student in the "emotional support" class. Go ahead and laugh. When I say "mainstream classes", I am talking about the regular classes that regular students attend.) And now because I am failing and getting lost in all my make-up work, I put it aside by skipping even more days of school! It's like one big mother effing circle!
It's not just the work that stresses me out. It's the people, too. I am just not a "people person". I really don't have any friends in the school I go to now, Ephrata. I hate being in large crowds of people, especially kids my age. I get paranoid and nervous, and I think all the other kids can tell there's something a little "iffy" about me. I'm just weird, and people don't understand me. So I stay quiet and think to myself all day. (Also, it doesn't help me to get to know people when I'm in an IU class. I'm in that windowless room for nearly the whole school day, and I only get to converse with the other IU kids. Also, do you know how embarassing it is to be in an IU class? I'm afraid other kids will make fun of me.)

School sucks (in case you haven't grasped that idea yet). I am so dreading the moment I wake up tomorrow.
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A Try-This-At-Home Jenn Experiment [Oct. 17th, 2007|08:09 pm]
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Okay, here's a little experiment that you can try at home. It's totally stupid, but it's really cool and funny, too.

Take two little headphones (the small bud-like headphones, like what they use for iPods) and stick them up your nose. (Make sure you clean your nose first!) Then turn on your CD player, iPod, MP3 player, ect. and crank the volume up to the loudest you can get. Try closing and then opening your mouth--the music literally plays in your mouth! You can try doing other things too, like taking deep breathes or swallowing in air. Try it with classic rock anthems--it's insane. It's even better when you're high.


And yes. I do this sometimes when I'm bored. =P
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Andrew Gets Owned by a Bee [Oct. 16th, 2007|07:44 pm]
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[Current Music |Tears For Fears - "Everybody Wants To Rule The World"]

Oh. My. God. The fucking (sorry) funniest thing happenned today. ANDREW GOT CHASED BY A BEE! He opened up a Mountain Dew on our way back home from Turkey Hill (the Pennsylvanian Getty Mart), and this ginormous bee just comes zooming over to him. He tried to swoosh it away, but it only made the thing angrier. It was the funniest thing I've ever seen, I swear! It really cheered me up because I've been feeling so sad lately.

See, now this is why I need to spend more time with Andrew again. It's stupid things like these that make life so cheery.
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Franky [Oct. 15th, 2007|08:12 pm]
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Franky, my grandfather, has been admitted to the hospital.

My dad and I visited him this afternoon. It is one of the saddest things I'll ever remember, seeing his frail little body just lying there, struggling to escape from the hospital bed and machine he was hooked up to (he doesn't believe there is anything wrong with him, but he is clearly ill). Just a couple of days ago he was able to walk and get through life on his own. I guess it's almost his time to go. But still....It (excuse this cliche') broke my heart to see him there. I almost wanted him to go to sleep and maybe pass away, so he wouldn't have to suffer. But time will tell if he gets better or not. I hope so, but I understand if he doesn't make it back home. He sure is hanging in there, though!
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"Cosmos (Outer Space)" by t.A.T.u. [Oct. 14th, 2007|10:23 pm]
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Games we don't want to play
Same winner everyday
Kill for the second best
Feel no more, feel no less
We have our minutes cut
We lose our feelings but
That's what the movies show
This is where stories go
 
Stars we don't want to reach
Scars we don't want to stitch
Go where we haven't been
Fly away, time machine
Clouds, we will chase them out
Crowds, we will face them down
This is our secret place
Outer space, outer space
 
Our home forever is outer space
Black stars and endless seas; outer space
New hope, new destinies; outer space
Forever we'll be in outer space, outer space
 
Ground we don't want to feel
Found what they didn't steal
Time, we were really lost
Bridges burned, fingers crossed
We, shall we ever be
Free with no guarantee
Life on another plane
Same before, same again
 
Go where you want to go
So no one ever knows
Only what we decide
Is it gone?  Has it died?
Dry every tear in my
Eye, you can tell me why?
This is our secret place
Outer space, outer space
 
Our home forever is outer space
Black stars and endless seas; outer space
New hope, new destinies; outer space
Forever we'll be in outer space, outer space
 
Outer space is where we get together
In this place we're meant to be
Stars are dancing and the time is fading
Die forever you and me, you and me
 
Passing stars and counting moons of planets
In the cosmos we are free
There's no atmosphere and no obsessions
It'll always be, it'll always be

 
Our home forever is outer space
Black stars and endless seas; outer space
New hope, new destinies; outer space
Forever we'll be in outer space, outer space

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Andrew and Emily/"Gomenasai" [Oct. 13th, 2007|10:58 pm]
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I went to my first high school football game last night. Ee-yep. Call me a wallflower, but I hate being in the middle of a large crowd, especially one packed with kids my own age. However, I only went last night because I wanted to finally get a chance to talk to my good old friends, Andrew and Emily Fritsch.
Andrew and Emily only live across the street from me, but since the beginning of the school year we haven't had a lot of time to hang out. Their parents sent them to a private, Catholic high school this year. I didn't think that would affect our relationships at all since the school is only three blocks down from our street, but I was totally wrong. Their parents also insisted that they join band and color guard, which takes up A LOT of time. So now whenever we actually do get the chance to hang out, they bring their new Catholic High friends over. (I don't have a problem with these kids. In fact, I actually like them very much. It's just that when they are over, Andrew and Emily tend to forget that I exist. It's like I'm last year's Christmas present.---I just made that up, wasn't it cute?!? =D )
Anyway, about the game. I went there so I could see them playing in the band. Even though I could barely get a word out of Andrew (he was hanging out with his new girlfriend), I had a great time with Emily, who was coincedently hanging out with her boyfriend. After the game, we got back home and Emily invited me inside. We spent the rest of the night playing Wii Sports, until her mom finally woke up and realized I was in her basement. I haven't had that much fun since the last day of summer vacation.

But I've noticed something this school year. I really don't have any other friends like Andrew and Emily. I have accquaintances at school, but I know they would be weirded out if I called them and asked if they wanted to go some place with me. And now that I'm losing them, I've been as lonely as ever.

I hate to be a dork and quote the song I am currently listening to, but "I never needed a friend like I do now."

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What Do You Have To Say? - Entertainment: Fall TV Season [Oct. 11th, 2007|08:01 pm]
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Which shows are you most excited about for the fall season?

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The Office, duh! My faith tells me that this season will so totally kick last season's ass. And I've also been having weird dreams about Dwight Schrute....really weird....


--EDIT--
Did you see tonight's episode? Dwight's got a bit scruffy, and I now admit that I have a crush on him. =)  (To those of you who have watched The Office - I'm as clueless as you are.)
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School, Computers, and Video Games Don't Mix [Oct. 9th, 2007|01:54 pm]
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 I wish I wasn't such a procrastinater!!! I've had a FIVE DAY WEEKEND, and I still haven't touched any of my school work! (It's mainly driver's ed homework....God, such a boring class!) Come to think of it, I should probably get off the computer if I want to pass all my classes...
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COLUMBUS DAY IS A SHAM! [Oct. 8th, 2007|11:05 am]
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Why do we celebrate Columbus Day? It's a day for honoring Christopher Columbus and his discovery of the Americas in 1492. After all, if he had not discovered America, than where would all of us fellow Americans be today? Well, forget what you've been told. There is more to the story.
When Christopher Columbus arrived in the Americas, he was definitely not the first to arrive. Already settled were the Native Americans, but it doesn't stop there. Columbus ordered that the Natives should be driven out of their homelands, claiming the continent as his own. Native Americans were also murdered, tortured, raped, pillaged, kidnapped and used as slaves. Diseases such as smallpox were spread both accidentaly and deliberately. An estimated 85% of the Native American population was wiped out only 150 years after Columbus' arrival. Not quite what they teach you in elementary school, huh?
So to do my part in this nation, I refuse to celebrate Columbus Day. I will, however, celebrate Native American Day. Which will you celebrate?

"What represented newness of freedom, hope, and opportunity for some was the occasion for oppression, degradation and genocide for others." - National Council of Churches
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A Very Long First Post [Oct. 7th, 2007|07:49 pm]
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I love writing and I love LiveJournal. (I've had previous accounts....many previous accounts, to be honest. But this one I'll keep, I swear!!) But one thing I hate is introductory paragraphs. It's so annoying, and so repetitive when you've used several accounts before! But then again, what is a LiveJournal without an introductory entry? So here it is....


My name is Jenn. I am sixteen years old. I was born in Bridgeport, Connecticut, and then I moved to Long Island, New York about a year after my birth. I only lived in Long Island for about three years until my dad got a new job in Lancaster, Pennsylvania. In short, I've been living in smelly ole' PA for almost my whole life. I find it to be very boring here in Lancaster compared to Long Island, but I'll never forget the memories I've had of this place. I'm thankful for the interesting people I met and the amazing friends I made.
Then again, life hasn't been all holly-jolly the whole time I've been here. I've had some really tough times (REALLY tough). Let's just say that depression, schizophrenia and epilepsy don't mix too well. (Not to put the blame on my illnesses.......Okay, I admit I'm putting the blame on my illnesses!) Along with experiencing mood swings, cutting, hallucinations, seizures and all that jazz, I've visited a lot of psyhiatric hospitals and even one residential home. Crazy times, I tell you (and no, that was not a pun).
Now to my personality (as if people really care). I think most people see me as a shy girl. I guess I am shy, and I'm definitely introverted, but I'm the exact opposite when I'm around people I'm comfortable with. I'll laugh, I'll joke, I'll say what's really on my mind, and I may even get into a fight with them. I love being around people who make me comfortable. It's like being let out of a cardboard box (why cardboard, I do not know). My favorite things to do are read, write, listen to music, take photos, play video games and swim. I am also interested in astronomy, yet I suck at math. And now that I wrote all that, it's time for FUN FACTS!!!.....

Who are your favorite bands/singers?: Annie, Gorillaz, The Killers, Metric, Nelly Furtado (I'm not that into her new music, though..), Nirvana, Our Lady Peace, Simon and Garfunkel, t.A.T.u., Tears For Fears (again, their new stuff sucks) and Weezer.

Describe your current icon: Well it's Halloween time, isn't it? And I was watching The Office at time, so this fit perfectly! The icon is of Creed, a character from the American version of The Office. I have always thought Creed was so funny, and my favorite Creed moment was when he came into work wearing a cape and vampire teeth. I guess you could call it a "fandom" icon. (By the way, all credit of this icon goes to [info]elliptica.)

How did you come up with your user name?: One of my all time favorite songs is "Made To Heal" by Our Lady Peace.

Ninjas or pirates?: I hate them both with a passion, only because I have been asked this so many times before. However, I do make exceptions for teenage mutant ninja turtles.

What are you going to do when you're done updating your LiveJournal?: Go grab a Dr. Pepper and play some Poke'mon. =D


♥Jenn (Guinnevere)
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